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Angry by Nekoshiba Angry by Nekoshiba
I have gotten a very angry relationship with my art. I don't feel like I improve anymore, and whenever I try to go out of my comfort zone I just get so intensely angry and frustrated that I just want to break everything and fall to the floor and cry. which is weird, because before I loved trying new things, exploring new techniques and styles. Now I just... I've given up. And it doesn't help that DeviantART is not doing it for me anymore. It feels so fake. I have to put so much effort and activity into keeping you guys satisfied that I wear myself out. And as I'm not improving or, drawing at all, the support that used to keep me going becomes non existent and I just want to give up. Not to mention the fact that the only time I get notice, comments and helpful advice is when I draw the same shit that I always draw. Whenever I try putting effort into something or trying something new no one gives a fuck, and that gives off so many confusing signals. I also managed to step into an art-trap, by drawing a style that is unbelievably physically hurtful to my wrist, giving me extreme inflammations whenever I try to hold a pen, which is why I have only been able to sketch on tumblr the last couple of weeks.

edit, regarding the 'praise' I do getIt also annoys me so much that people treat me like some kind of celebrity or art god, it's nice that you like my art and all, but I'm not really all that good, actually I'm pretty terrible. And fooling yourself to look at me as an idol and inspiration is stupid. All I want is to draw in a community of artists that treat each others art equal, help each other improve and praise where it is artistically deserved to be praised. I have no art education, I just like to draw. So when you comment praise beyond common sense, it just makes me equally confused about peoples view on what I do draw and if I have reached the top of my artistic abilities and that there only down from here.

I'm dwelling on leaving dA, changing accounts, or just take a long hard break.
I want to grow as an artist. not try to keep an audience satisfied at all times regardless of what I really want to do.
I love drawing, but sometimes dA feels like a big boulder tied to my wrist. and I don't really know why.
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AussieInk May 31, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I have followed your art for a VERY long time, like when you first started.. I grew up watching you improve and draw, haha. And you've inspired me very much! Just thought I'd led you know.

But what would probably help is get a new account, a new 'sona' of a sort, and just remain absent from this current group. :)
bubblegumlol May 18, 2013  Student Artist
u dont hav 2 draw 2 please ppl and if u feel that strongly about how ppl only like ur older art who cares? i personally dont care. i draw 4 me b/c i like it if ppl dont like/dnt notice i just keep moving YOU need 2 think about wat u want 2 do instead of focusing on every1 else. And artists looking up 2 u that means ur doing something right
and u can get help from artists u can request a critic
if u want my further opinion send me a note b/c i dnt want u 2 think im mean if i go on
if u want the truth send me a note:hug:
InsertFakeName May 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No one is forcing you into anything, take a break, relax all you want. Don't stress at all, take a deep breath and quickly think of the most happiest thing, then just exhale. That's what I usually do. :icongianthuggleplz9:
CriminalSpirit May 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I do the same thing, whenever I get out of my comfort zone and try and draw, for example humans, I get easily frustrated and give up quickly. I really don't know why. :shrug: I try and look and fav other art that helps and inspires me to draw what I have trouble with, although it doesn't always help. C:
I definitely see what you mean, people likely watch you for the characters and canines you have now. It seems whenever someone draws something that isn't usually in their gallery there are only a few or no comments. :P
I don't think you can never stop improving C: I think there are little ruts where there is less improvement and then big spurts with a lot of improvement over a small period of time, it just comes and goes in waves. The same thing happens in horseback riding and even the best riders, the Olympians still improve and have riding lessons and instructors.
DA should be a fun place, don't let us push you to draw certain things, draw when you want and draw what you want to. :nod: I will be here if you ever want to talk or need someone to listen. :huggle:
Smarted May 13, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Draw for yourself. Don't concentrate on pleasing others, because you can never please everyone all at once. Maybe just drawing on your own and not posting things to dA for a while (or a long time) would help you improve without worrying about satisfying the crowd?
MunchiCookieton May 13, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Take a break, we won't be angry. Besides, if it hurts, then that's no good, is it?
R-E-D-13 May 13, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
There is never an end to improve yourself its an on going thing and art work, drawing is suppose to be something you love doing who cares what you draw or do if you decide to draw something that you usually don't DO IT don't draw to please the audience draw for yourself not for everyone around as long as your happy on what your doing it doesn't matter what DA or anyone thinks, sometimes you have to think back "why did I start drawing.....when did I enjoy it?" If you don't. Don't push yourself if your wrist hurts stop drawing and put ice on it. I think what every "artist" needs to remember is to draw for themselves not for there audience. The probability of you reading this is low due to all the comments below but if you do read it I hope you will understand

Sincerely; An amateur artist

P.S. Who loves to draw not for others but for me :)
Very well said. I wish DA was a more appreciative place for all us Artist to go and grow together. I felt this way a lot for awhile and it comes back sometimes and it's just shitty. It's okay to feel the way you feel...I am glad you didn't keep this bottled up. If you decide to come back maybe we can give each other pointers and advice and stuff like that. I would love that very much. Until then rest your poor hard working wrist and take all the time you need to recover.
Ospi2ki May 12, 2013  Hobbyist
is good that you take the break need yourself, this is good I am agree with you. :hug:
Akeylo May 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I honestly know how you feel, and I've been in the same position for awhile. Almost to the point where art doesn't come as easily as it used to, and I juts feel like I can't draw anything. Just keep strong and you'll pull through. Trying new things doesn't always get praise like we would like, but whether you get it from others or not do know you being praised because you tried something new. Honestly, people are probably so comfortable with your style that maybe they fear change.

I have always admired your creativity, and I really enjoy your style of drawing. Although you may be in a rut, you will get out eventually!! No where to go but up :)
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