This is a journal continuing the debate I started on this image:


I do think it's harsh to leave. Most of you suggested that I'd take a long break, but I think my break have lasted long enough. I want to be on deviantART for me and my own winning only. I'm not here to please anyone, or to be a public person.

I joined deviantART to find people with common interests as me, to enjoy artwork and keep track of my friends, roleplay and occasionally upload some art. I would perhaps never have proceeded to continue drawing and improving if I had never found deviantART, and I've found some of my greatest friends thanks to this site. So leaving is too harsh.

All I want to do is go back to how it used to be back in those days. I didn't have many watchers, and I rarely got any comments. But when I did- they were helpful, constructive and pushed me forward to improve.

I have decided what I am going to do
I'm not going to draw to please anyone but myself. I upload only 4% of everything I draw to dA, because I wanted my gallery to be clean and orderly. Not anymore. I'll upload whatever the fuck I want from this point on. I'm also going to stop replying to comments like "cute" and "cool" with "thank you!". I'm not going to reply to comments what-so-ever, unless they are constructive, helpful, and actually appropriate for the artwork as a technical piece.

I've also had the feeling lately that I've been a public person, treated like a 'popular' artist. I don't want that. I want to go back to a piece of the community. I want to get better at commenting on artwork, helping others improve, to be a watcher. I'm still trying to figure out how to accomplish this one, since it's been so long since I knew how.

Long story short; I'm distancing me from you. I'm going to upload whatever, not for anyone but myself. And if you don't have anything constructive to say, don't say anything at all.